Ocean Wise-Owl Chapter six

As the due date got closer I got more irritable, I just wanted the baby to get out of me. I was fed up of having a bump, eating loads, craving things that I hate and going to the toilet more than needed. Mel said the thing I need was a film night so she came over we got changed into out nightwear and put on a scary movie, I love scary movies.

Flynn on the other hand didn't love scary films, in fact it was only on for ten minutes and he decided he was bored already.

"Have a good night girls, I'm going to bed"

"Night Flynn"

I didn't answer I was already engrossed by the film, the twists the turns and the jumps and the screams.

Mel turned back round and began muttering to herself,

"I wonder"

"What?"

"When Flynn will propose"

"Your crazy"

I left it at that, no way will Flynn propose.

I decided to go visit my parents, they recently shave their heads for charity and then went to do charity work in the Amazon so I haven't seen them in few months. It was strange to see Mum without her plait and Dad with out his long hair under a hat, all they talked about was there trip for ages.

Eventually the started talking about the up coming birth and talking about their grandchild, mum rubbed by stomach and dad started talking in a strange baby voice. Mum wanted to tell me about her experiences having me but I made the excuse that I had plans and had to go. There was noway I was hearing that!

As soon as I walked in I felt tired and went to go take a nap, the baby had other ideas and soon my waters broke and pain shot through my body. Thankfully Mel still hadn't left from our film night and so I had someone with me while the ambulance came and took me to the hospital, this was it I was finally giving birth.

Longest birth ever I think, I am so tried I would collapse now but the baby I'm holding is too precious to drop. At 1am this morning I gave birth to a baby boy, Avery Wise-Owl. I know maybe I shouldn't of left the hospital just left, they said I could stay until I had a rest but I needed to be home. I hated hospitals!

I put Avery in the new crib and heard footsteps behind me, Flynn had been great but when your tired the last thing you want is someone asking you stuff. Well it's the last thing I want anyway.

"So are you ok?"

"Yes I'm fine!"

Maybe I was too harsh but I was't thinking straight, I pushed past him and walked away.

Flynn caught up with me and began rubbing my shoulders, it felt really nice and relaxing after the stress and tension of giving birth.

"It's ok you know, I'm here for you"

"You always are"

I turned round to give him a hug but he put his hands up to stop me, I raised my eyebrows and he just smiled.

He got down on one knee and brought out a ring box, I swear I stopped breathing. My hands flew to my mouth and I believe I began crying.

"What are you doing?"

"I though it was obvious but if you really don't know I'm asking you to marry me Ocean Wise-Owl"

Did I say yes? Of course I said yes! My proposal to Michel was basically more of a business meeting then and actual display of love, this was love. Avery began crying and I sighed and began to get out of the hug but Flynn just pulled me back and smiled:-

"You go to bed, I'll see to him"

Ocean Wise-Owl Chapter five

"Well hello soon-to-be-mother"

I tried to keep a serious straight face but I soon started smiling, my stomach wasn't showing as much in my business clothes so most people couldn't believe I was nearing six months. Still that's how long it's been, six months since I found out and told Flynn who was over the moon. Well, no he wasn't over the moon in actual fact he sort of fainted but he was happyc.

I made myself a large hot chocolate with extra sugar, chocolate, foam, cream and sprinkles, this drink has become my guilty pleasure and I can't get enough of it.

"Oh Ocean you have a meeting in half an hour"

Great all I need, was it too much to ask for five minutes to enjoy my drink.

Still I stepped into the elevator, drink in hand and began my way to the meeting. My heart stopped when I saw who the meeting was with, Michel's company. I almost decided to cancel until Mel phoned them to unsure someone other than Michel will be attending.

But they lied,

"So sorry Ocean but it appears I'm the only one who can do this meeting"

"It's fine" it wasn't

"So what's happening with you, you look bigger"

"I'm pregnant with Flynn's baby"

He almost spluttered out his drink, that made me laugh it was just the reaction I wanted.

"Flynn, as in my Flynn got you pregnant"

"Yes, yes he did"

"Well I guess he always went for my cast offs"

I turned way to calm down, at this moment I wanted to scream, cry and punch his face. How dare he still try to put me down, after all this time he still has so much power over me. Well that's not fair and I won't allow it.

I stood up and looked down at him,

"Well Michel he is more of a man than you, in fact he is far more decent then you and I'm glad that you ditched me at the alter as otherwise I would of never had Flynn or this baby. So if you want this meeting then find someone to replace you"

I felt so good as I turned and walked out, finally he was out of my life.

"So guys what do you think?"

This was the tenth flat we had looked at and it was exhausting me, I thought the flat we were in was fine for a while but no. Flynn decided to find a new place as soon as possible. The baby began kicking and I rubbed my stomach smiling down at he or she, Flynn began talking figures with the estate agent.

"I think this place will be perfect"

"Great!"

Just a simple great and I few documents and then the place was ours, yes it was empty but I knew I could fill it with love.

I began laughing, the only thing we had moved into the flat was the TV and sofa and Flynn decided that was enough work to deserve a rest. He began channel surfing, I walked over pretending to be in a mood.

"Oi, you do realise we have a lot to do"

He just pulled me on to the sofa next to him.

"We have weeks to move stuff in"

"No you have weeks to move stuff in, I can't do heavy lifting"

"Then you can just sit here and look heavenly"

That's when I realised I made the right choice about my life, it was here with Flynn in this flat with the baby.

Ocean Wise-Owl Chapter four

So when I said it changed everything I didn't mean in a bad way, in fact I felt healed as if there was no more sadness and hurt anymore. I was no longer that girl that got ditched at the alter I was wanted and I was happy, Flynn made me happy. It was nice to be greeted with kisses and cuddles and not a stack of paperwork to sign, also this time there was a passion.

So were we going out? Were we officially a couple? Honestly no, we weren't and I had no intention of being. Flynn felt the same, we are more like friends with benefits then anything else. I wasn't ready to date just yet but I knew I soon would be and I knew Flynn would understand that. 

"Your doing what!"

Mel was so surprised that she missed her footing and slipped on the treadmill, in was our weekly gym session and I had a lot to tell her.

"It's not a big deal"

"Your sleeping with Flynn"

She pulled herself up and began running again, she was quiet as she thought through what I just told her. I saw her as an expert at relationships and she was the first person I talked to about any maybe partners.

"Ok, I've thought this through and I think it might work out well"

"Good I'm glad, now let's hit the weights"

I rushed to the weights and began pumping iron as they say, Mel just casually strolled over and looked at me like I was crazy.

"Since when do we do weights?"

I huffed out my explanation, but she didn't excepted it.

"We never work out this long"

"I've just gain a bit more weight over the past few weeks"

She suddenly gasped,

"You don't think you might be pregnant?"

I froze, fingers gripped on to the bars and my eyes popped out of my head. Pregnant? No, noway could I be pregnant. I began calculating dates and had the sickly feeling appear when I realised I could actually be pregnant. 

Running to the pharmacy, running to the flat and running into the bathroom. I sat on the lip of the bath while Mel gave me the 'you should of been more careful' lecture, I broke into a quiet panic. What about work? What about my career? What about Flynn!

I looked down ashamed, why was I so stupid? Mel saw my face and bit her bottom lip.

"Hon I'm sorry it will be all right...the test is done do you want me to read the result?"

I nodded, it was the only thing I could do. I didn't want to see the result, if I'm upset that I am pregnant will that make me a bad mother? Oh I'm so confused. 

Mel went to the sink and picked up the test, she began mumbling something and checking the back of the box. Then she took out the leaflet from inside and checked that as well, I ran my cold, sweaty hands over my warm legs over and over.

"Ok, you ready?"

My head shot up, I was as ready as I'll ever be.

That night I put off telling the news, Flynn kissed me like always and then I suddenly remembered and pushed him off. I felt weird, as if I was hurting him.

"What's wrong?"

"I'm pregnant Flynn, I'm pregnant with your baby",

"For real?"

I looked up at him from under my eyelashes embarrassed, I nodded slowly with a small hopeful smile.

Ocean Wise-Owl Chapter three

The thing about the city is there are a lot of places to get a drink. Pubs, Bars, Clubs and Lounges all served alcohol and all gave me somewhere to go at anytime of the day, when one closed or kicked me out another opened and welcomed me. Maybe I was becoming a bit of an alcoholic but it wasn't like I had a big problem.

Did I like the taste? No, but I liked the numbness, the warmth and the way it made you forget. How I needed to forget and escape the memories of Michel and what he has done to me, it was way to get me out the house and to forget. Also drinking is social so if I met a client at a bar and ordered myself a few glasses of wine no one even cared.

"Sorry hon you've had enough I think you should go home"

I cursed under my breath, why couldn't he see that in actual fact I haven't had enough. This was the last club on my list and it was only two in the morning, I had hoped to stay out until at least four. I batted my eyelids and tried one more time for one last drink, he just shook his head again.

I got off my stool and turned around only to see Flynn, yeah my Flynn playing the guitar in the corner. Did he work here? I didn't even know he had a job.

"Flynn?"

My voice was slurred and when he looked up he looked very disappointed, what was he my father? He told the other clubbers he was taking a break and pulled me into a seating booth.

"Ocean your drunk! Hold on is this what you've been doing every night and wearing skirts that short, this won't make you feel better you know!"

If I wasn't drunk that would of hurt, in fact it did hurt just not as much as it would of done if I was sober. Still I tried to put my arm around and gave him a drunk smile to let him know it was in fact all good.

Then I had another great idea to pounce on him and snog him! He must of been shocked as he didn't push me off, in fact I think he kissed me back. Either way soon we were both kissing each other more and more and I felt good, better than good I felt amazing. Maybe instead of drinking to forget I should of been kissing to forget.

We pulled a part a little bit and looked at each other, he wasn't that sober either I could taste the alcohol on his breath as we kissed. Still he was only looking out for me, like he has always done since we met.

"Why don't we go back to the flat?"

 

I woke up my head killing I rolled over and saw Flynn, why was he in my bed? Then I remembered, what have I done I've ruined everything! He woke up and smiled,

"Morning"

"Ummmm yeah morning"

I shrank in the covers and became embarrassed,

"Did we ummm...forget it stupid question"

Never ever drinking again, why did I have to go and ruin things. I got up and grabbed the shirt Flynn gave me as a nightdress, I slipped it on and walked to the bathroom.

When I came back he was lying on top of a made bed in his underwear, I had to ask the question in my head.

"This doesn't change anything dose it?"

He just smiled and I realised it changed everything.