Ahh the good old work desk, how I loved escaping to my office everyday. Nowadays I even make an excuse to come here on weekdays, or I take meetings to fill up the time. Now I love my family and Flynn is still the love of my life, it's just the children have become nightmares.
Avery had hit the troublesome teenage years and Lila was in that middle point wanting to be both a child and an adult at the same time creating stressful results. They argued like cat and dog, about everything and anything, from what time was the right time to get up (Lila said eight in the morning and Avery said two in the afternoon) to should Avery really go out with bed hair all the time (Avery said yes it's cool and Lila said no it's not cool).
Then we got involved either because we couldn't stand the shouting or we needed to tell them off for something or sometimes both! Lila still got upset when she was told off and was quiet sensitive, Avery on the other hand didn't really care and argued about the punishment and how it wasn't fair. So home wasn't so great now, the children are driving me insane!
"Things still bad Ocean?"
"What do you think! I don't know what I'm going to do Mel"
"I guess this is a bad time to say both of their school's phoned, they want you to collect them"
Oh great, I forgot that there home time behaviour was worse or the same at school. This meant detentions, suspensions and bad grades came freely from my kids, not what I wanted at all.
"Come on mum, he had it coming!"
Avery was sent home for fighting, again. He also defaced school property, again. This meant he was expelled from school, his second school I should add. But according to him it didn't matter because he got an invite to a party and impressed a girl, to bad he is grounded for a month.
"Sorry mum"
Lila, oh her cute face and green eyes couldn't get her out of this one. Disrupting class, stealing and bulling, I can't believe it. She is also expelled, this will sound bad but I think at least this is only her first expulsion.
I sent them to their room and stomped into mine, Avery slipped in behind me and wrapped his arms around me and planted kisses in my hair. I crossed my arms and told myself not to explode with anger or burst down with tears. I looked at the photo of the city we lived in that hung on the wall,
"You know I used to laugh when people said the city isn't a good place to raise children, I thought the city was as good a place as anywhere and I love the city too much to see the bad points"
I turned away from Avery and I felt sad, but what I was about to say felt true as well.
"Maybe those people were right, maybe the city life has made our children like this"
"Ocean, were city folk and they are city kids they won't adapt to anything else"
In my heart I knew that was right, our home was here in the bustling grime of the heart of the city. Yet, I something told me, maybe women's intuition, that I was right to think about leaving the city behind me.
The next morning I went to work but I felt the same as yesterday and couldn't bare it anymore so I burrowed Mel's old car and headed out of the city to see my parents, I rarely saw them now. I left for the city as soon as I left school and didn't regret it, mum and dad always came to see us or we met in the middle at a park or cafe. Now something felt right about driving to see them, I haven't been here since my almost-wedding.
I found mum in the local gardens, as soon as she saw be she knew something was wrong. My mum seemed to know things before I told her and always knew what to do, I hope to be like her one day.
"What's wrong baby?"
"Mum I don't know what to do!"
I broke down right there sobbing my heart out, clinging on to my mum for support.
"Ocean! Ocean! Are you ok? Where are you? I was worried sick!"
Maybe taking off without telling anyone was not a good idea, Avery was now having a panic attack on the phone. I apologised and told him but he still seemed a bit annoyed, I told him I'll come back in a few days once I know what to do.
I walked to the spot where my almost-wedding took place, my mum loves the ocean and said it told her what to do. Although I'm named after it I never had the same feelings towards the ocean, now though I'm hoping it will give me some answers.
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