Saturn Wise-Owl Chapter twelve

Instantly Robbie and I became good friends, I no longer cried and stayed on the sofa. I got dressed, made breakfast, took my kids to school and even went back to work. He told me how his wife, Mandy, had died in an accident when she fell down some stairs at work. We helped each other mend the cracks, in ourselves and in our family.

He even gave me the courage to tell Jupiter to go home and be back with David, I finally had independence. It wasn't just the support though, Robbie was brilliant at making me laugh, helping with homework and we had a lot in common. He seemed to always come around, morning, noon and night. If he could come round we would be on the phone for hours on end.

I guess it didn't surprise anyone when we started dating. This relationship was completely different to my relationship with Bluebell, it was all new and exciting. We made sure we took things slow, we didn't want our children to be messed around. But you can only go slow for so long...

So he and his teenagers moved in, Robbie said that they look a lot like their mother. Rick is his son and Molly is his daughter. They both settled in quiet well I think, I was a but worried about Rick sharing a room with Teal but they have seemed to patch things up. It was strange having a full house though, there never seems to be any space now!

Molly was warmly welcomed, just like her dad she was funny and well liked. As she was the same age as Navy those two became joined at the hip, they were like best friends. Soon Navy wanted to Molly to sleep in the bunk bed with her and so Earth had the new bed, thankfully Earth didn't mind as long as she chose the bedsheets.

 

It was a family meeting and the news we just shared had stunned the teens into silence, which was worrying as they are never quiet! They looked at each other as they realised that the people next to them weren't just room-mates but were soon to be...Step-bothers and sisters. Robbie asked me to marry him and I said yes.

I felt Robbie shift uncomfortably beside me as our children said nothing, I knew how he was feeling not knowing what they were thinking was unnerving.

"So what do you think?"

They mummbled their approval and then made there way out of the dinning room and went on with their everyday lives.

I was on cloud nine! I couldn't belive how well my life has turned around, after all the hardship that I've gone through it's nice to have something good now. I felt so happy and safe when I'm with Robbie, nothing at all could ruin this feeling of bliss I get when I'm in his arms.

I ran straight over to my parent's flat to tell them, I had to tell Neptune too aswell seen as he still lives with them. Dad made me stay and approve his suite to see if it still looked alright from the last family wedding, I have I said how much I love my dad because I seriously do.

No matter how safe I felt with Robbie I was still nervous about sleeping with him, I've only ever been with Bluebell. It was like the last thing we shared together was going to get scrubbed away, I knew though that eventually I would have to cross that bridge.

So as he kissed me I had to ask the question,

"Do you still think about Mandy?"

"Everyday"

I like to wake up early and watch him sleep, I guess that is kind of creepy but in the early morning light everything looks so pure and innocent. In the haven of this house things look so safe and secure and I wouldn't never want to leave this for anything.

Sometimes I liked to go to the special place that Jupiter, Bluebell and I went to and shared our secrets, hopes and dreams. I like to think that Bluebell knows that I loved him and that somewhere he is watching our children grow up and he is proud of them and me.

Saturn Wise-Owl Chapter eleven

I couldn't belive it. Bluebell's car collided with another and died on the sceane. I felt awful, he was my frist love and yet he left thinking I hated him. I felt even worse because I think apart of me felt glad that I was rid of him. We burried him in the same place we got married, I guess it's symbolic that are marriage began and ended here.

The children all looked at me for surrport but I didn't know what to do! How could I help them when I didn't know how to help myself? Mum explained things to them and I think it helped a little...I still thought maybe thay still didn't understand. I could look at there sad, lost faces anymore, I turned around and saw Jupiter on the bridge. I ran to my twin.

She opened her arms and I collapsed into them. I sobbed and sobbed for the the frist time scince the accident, I tried to be strong for the children but in the protection of my twin the floodgates opened.

"H-How can this h-happen?"

She held me tighter, the other guests for the funeral walked past and some patted me on the shoulder.

I straightened up and dabbed my eyes with tissue, my twin frowned in sympathy and then gave a small smile. I wondered what she was up to, what ideas were spinning in her head. For once I had know idea what my twin was thinking.

"Why don't I move in for a while, help you and the kids while your upset"

True to her word the next day my sister truned up, she said David and her little boy Union was going on holiday for a few weeks to see David's family.

"So don't you worry sister, I'll take care of everything"

It's a good job she did, I became greif stricken. All I did was lounge on the sofa looking at the ceiling, Mum came to vist once. She told me all about how she felt when Venus' dad, Pi, died. How dad had to turn her life around so Skye was ok and their marragie survived. But, her and Pi were never married, never spent years together, raising three children together and they didn't argue right before he died.

I stared outside the window. Watching the world go by, the day turn to night, the birds flying and the cars drive pass. I slept, eat and lived on the sofa, I had no concept of what day it was or how meny weeks went by.

Navy was allways going out, phone in hand. She was popular from my understanding, she never had friends round the house though she allways went to them. I guess having your mum replaced with an emotional wreck who is living on the sofa isn't 'cool'.

Teal lived in his room, he ran up there as soon as he got in from school. He never left to see friends or anything, I worried incase he had any problems but right now I wasn't in a place to help him. I would probably make things worse...

Jupiter was amazing, helping them with homework, cooking, cleaning and keeping the family going. I don't know what I would do without her, she is a woman on a mission she dose nothing by halves. I hoped she would see something wrong with Teal and sort it out herself.

Friday night, Jupiter took the kids out to the cinema. I was left alone watching TV and crying as normal. Thinking about Bluebell as normal. Feeling empty as normal.

The doorbell rang, I left it but the caller was persistant and kept ringing the bell. I sighed going to wash my face and get dressed.

"Listen I am so sorry about this, your son is Teal right?"

I looked confused but nodded,

"I hate to tell you this but my son here has been bullying him, I only just found out and dragged him here to tell you"

I looked at his son, he didn't even seem sorry! I felt so angry and fustrated that Teal didn't tell me because I was too upset about Bluebell.

"he deserved it, stupid Berry"

I gasped when I heard what he said and so did his dad.

"I'm so sorry about that, he has been acting up scince his mother died two months ago"

"Yeah my husband died recently, I didn't even realise he was being bullied"

We talked for ages, he knew what I was going through after the death of Bluebell. It was nice to have that kind of surrport.

Saturn Wise-Owl Chapter ten

Earth was a wonderful toddler, always smiling and laughing. I forgotten how nice it is to have a toddler around, the house was more fun and more energetic. I still had a nagging feeling that something bad would happen...It grew worse as Earth aged into a child.

It was a sunny Saturday, Navy was at a birthday party and Teal was playing football with Bluebell. I decided to tidy round the house, I dusted and cleaned until the house sparkled. I got the washing out and was about to put it in the dryer,

"What do you think your doing!"

I dropped the washing and turned to see Earth, a scowl formed on her forehead.

"Earth you scared me, I'm only putting the washing in the dryer"

"Oh so your happy to kill me?"

I became confused,

"How will it kill you?"

She sighed and argued,

"Using a dryer instead of hanging them outside means wasting energy, our energy comes from fossil fuel and produces carbon dioxide which contributes to Global Warming and Global Warming is killing the Earth. My name is Earth so you are killing me!"

I was proud that she felt strongly for something and wanted to stop Global Warming but I didn't see how she could get so angry about it.

"Ok, ok calm down. I'll find a clothes line and hang it up outside"

She finally calmed down and I had to rake through cupboards looking for a clothes line, I eventually found one underneath the sink.

So I set up the line and hung the washing, Earth even watched to make sure I did it right. I don't know how you can get it wrong but I went along with it, she seemed happy after and went off to her bedroom. I hoped that would be it, she would let this save the world thing go...

A phone call from school told me that wasn't it.

Earth had started a fight with another girl and now Earth was suspended for a month. I told her that she should not of done that but she wasn't listening.

"She called me a tree hugger and I said what is wrong with that and then she made me mad"

"Honey you can't fight people, not with violence anyway"

"Then she said I was stupid because I was a Berry"

I couldn't belive that, I though people now accepted Berries. I guess not. I phoned the school and told them they had a serious promblem with accepting diffrent races, I never got teased for being part Berry so I don't see why my kids should be teased for being a full Berry.

Teal and Navy didn't appear to have any promblems at school. If they did they didn't show it, they were both popular and were always round other people's houses. I feared the time they would be teenagers, when your a teenager dfiffrences aren't as accepted...I knew that soon they would be teenagers though.

"Saturn, you know you love me right?"

I wondered what he wanted, the last time I heard him say that was when we left for five days to report on something. I became worried, sure it was a long time since he left for work and he seemed happy just working for the local paper but...

"What do you want?"

"The TV reporter covering the Movie Awards Night has gone into labour and the network asked me to cover for her, I told them I'll be there. I'll only be gone for three maybe four days so don't-"

"How could you!"

I exploded, a parted of me said 'I told you so' and the rest of me felt hurt of betrayed. He promised he wouldn't do this again and at least without asking me frist. Now he was just assumed I would be ok with things, well I'm not ok with this. We argued for ages untill we just walked off.

"I'm going to stay at my mum's tonight"

"Good because I don't want you in the house tonight!"

The door slammed and I felt hot tears forming, was part of me glad that he was finally gone? I sighed not knowing what I was going to do, or tell the kids.

"Mum?"

Teal and Navy stood there, they must of heard us arguing.

"We heard you arguing with dad"

Yeah they did, I sighed again. They were going to find out anyway,

"Yeah your dad was gone to stay at Grandma Sigh's, I hope you didn't wake up Earth?"

Teal looked really mad,

"He's left us again!"

Navy looked upset, as if her whole world and crashed,

"Don't worry Earth is still aleep"

As soon as Navy said that a sleepy Earth walked down stairs.

"What's going on?"

I gave a small smile and lead them all in the kitchen and made hot chocolate. I suddenly felt like a single parent again...it didn't seem as bad as it did before. The phone rang and I went in the study to pick it up.

"Hello, Saturn Wise-Owl here"

"Mrs Wise-Owl, are you the wife of Bluebell?...I think you need to sit down"

"Excuse me? Yes I am? Who is this?"

"I'm Sargent Pepper and I am calling to inmform you that there has been a accident..."

I just couldn't handle that information, what was I going to do?

Saturn Wise-Owl Chapter nine

Morning sickness took control, I didn't know if I had any say as to what I did anymore. The baby decided when I ate and how much and my body told me to throw up and constantly go to the toilet. I was so fed up with the whole thing, my hormones were telling me to me grumpy and stressed out. The amount of times I've had to apologies for being mean and spiteful is unreal!

I wondered how the children were taking it in, we waited for the bus to pull up and I approached the subject. I worried what they might say but I needed to know.

"So guys, how do you feel about the new baby?"

"Great"

"Awesome"

I sighed, I realised that was all I was going to get out of them and left it as that. I remembered when Mum told Jupiter and I she was expecting Neptune and how we reacted, did she also worry?

Mum took me to the cinema as a mother/daughter treat, it was nice to spend some time alone with her. With so many grandchildren her time is taken up by them, so it was rare to have one on one time with her. It wasn't long before she asked the dreaded question though.

"So what are you thinking of calling the baby?"

"I have no idea! Which reminds me, why did you start call us names of planets?"

Mum started laughing, that question has been bugging me for some time but I keep forgetting to ask. Well now it was out in the open and I could finally get some answers...and maybe some inspiration for my own baby?

"Well I was with Mars so I just carried on the planet idea with Venus, Jupiter, Neptune and you, Saturn. Your father named Skye so that's why he isn't in the theme but I guess Skye dose sort of go with the same topic as planets"

"I thought you were going to carry on having kids until you had the whole set of planets"

Mum laughed harder,

"Hell no! I wasn't going give birth nine times just have all the planets, besides I wasn't going to call my children Pluto or Uranus. Though I suppose Mercury and Earth are nice names"

I thought about it and gave a smile.

"Earth is a great name, I superb name in fact" 

When I came in Bluebell wrapped his arms around me and pulled me close,

"Hey babe I miss-"

"Actually can you not do that"

I winced pulling away and pushing him off, I still wasn't comfortable and I didn't know if I have forgiven him enough. It was mean I know but I just couldn't be so romantic with him until I can truly forgive him. 

"Honey, I will never leave you and the kids again. You are the most important things to me right now, for the sake of our kids and our baby forgive me please"

I felt torn, torn to forgive him and love him again and torn to kick him out and get rid of him. I pushed past him and ran to the bathroom.

I ran the taps and washed my hands and face. Splashing the cold water up my body trying to cool it down, I knew I had to make my mind up soon. For every one's sake, it was hard though. I thought about everything Bluebell and I have together against everything he was done to hurt me. When I thought about it hard enough I knew I still loved him...but was it enough to forget about the five years he was gone for?

Soon it was the dead line, my time of thinking was over. Today was the day my baby, fingers crossed, would be born. I decided to forgive Bluebell, I loved him too much to watch him leave again. It started out as a normal day, Bluebell left early work work. Teal went off to school, before he did though he rubbed my belly and said to the baby,

"See you soon"

Then it was just Navy and I alone in the house. Poor thing has a stomach bug and has been off all week, at least I have some company now though. Before my days were spent reading pregnancy guides and watching daytime television, now I'm playing video games and trying to get to level 10!

"Come on mum, we need to save the princess"

"I know, I know why don't we put this on pause while I get us a snack?"

I never reached the kitchen though. The baby decided that he/she was more important then crisps and sandwiches, so I stood their clutching my stomach trying not to panic myself or Navy. She was a star though she phoned the ambulance, Bluebell's office and she even phone Jupiter, so things actually went quite smoothly.

"Hey Earth, I'm your sister Navy and were going to best friends. I'll help you through everything because I'm five years older I'm wiser, not as wise as Teal, he is are big brother, he is a year older so he is a tiny bit more clever. Don't tell him I said that though!"

Earth gurgled and giggled as Navy talked to her, again she tried to say her name.

"Arth"

"Actually it's Earth, like the planet we live on, but you were real close little sister"

I watched my too daughters, why couldn't life always be this sweet? Why could life be as peaceful and as calm as it is now? I had strange sense of foreboding, as if just around the corner something bad as going to happen...