I couldn't belive it. Bluebell's car collided with another and died on the sceane. I felt awful, he was my frist love and yet he left thinking I hated him. I felt even worse because I think apart of me felt glad that I was rid of him. We burried him in the same place we got married, I guess it's symbolic that are marriage began and ended here.
The children all looked at me for surrport but I didn't know what to do! How could I help them when I didn't know how to help myself? Mum explained things to them and I think it helped a little...I still thought maybe thay still didn't understand. I could look at there sad, lost faces anymore, I turned around and saw Jupiter on the bridge. I ran to my twin.
She opened her arms and I collapsed into them. I sobbed and sobbed for the the frist time scince the accident, I tried to be strong for the children but in the protection of my twin the floodgates opened.
"H-How can this h-happen?"
She held me tighter, the other guests for the funeral walked past and some patted me on the shoulder.
I straightened up and dabbed my eyes with tissue, my twin frowned in sympathy and then gave a small smile. I wondered what she was up to, what ideas were spinning in her head. For once I had know idea what my twin was thinking.
"Why don't I move in for a while, help you and the kids while your upset"
True to her word the next day my sister truned up, she said David and her little boy Union was going on holiday for a few weeks to see David's family.
"So don't you worry sister, I'll take care of everything"
It's a good job she did, I became greif stricken. All I did was lounge on the sofa looking at the ceiling, Mum came to vist once. She told me all about how she felt when Venus' dad, Pi, died. How dad had to turn her life around so Skye was ok and their marragie survived. But, her and Pi were never married, never spent years together, raising three children together and they didn't argue right before he died.
I stared outside the window. Watching the world go by, the day turn to night, the birds flying and the cars drive pass. I slept, eat and lived on the sofa, I had no concept of what day it was or how meny weeks went by.
Navy was allways going out, phone in hand. She was popular from my understanding, she never had friends round the house though she allways went to them. I guess having your mum replaced with an emotional wreck who is living on the sofa isn't 'cool'.
Teal lived in his room, he ran up there as soon as he got in from school. He never left to see friends or anything, I worried incase he had any problems but right now I wasn't in a place to help him. I would probably make things worse...
Jupiter was amazing, helping them with homework, cooking, cleaning and keeping the family going. I don't know what I would do without her, she is a woman on a mission she dose nothing by halves. I hoped she would see something wrong with Teal and sort it out herself.
Friday night, Jupiter took the kids out to the cinema. I was left alone watching TV and crying as normal. Thinking about Bluebell as normal. Feeling empty as normal.
The doorbell rang, I left it but the caller was persistant and kept ringing the bell. I sighed going to wash my face and get dressed.
"Listen I am so sorry about this, your son is Teal right?"
I looked confused but nodded,
"I hate to tell you this but my son here has been bullying him, I only just found out and dragged him here to tell you"
I looked at his son, he didn't even seem sorry! I felt so angry and fustrated that Teal didn't tell me because I was too upset about Bluebell.
"he deserved it, stupid Berry"
I gasped when I heard what he said and so did his dad.
"I'm so sorry about that, he has been acting up scince his mother died two months ago"
"Yeah my husband died recently, I didn't even realise he was being bullied"
We talked for ages, he knew what I was going through after the death of Bluebell. It was nice to have that kind of surrport.
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