Morning sickness took control, I didn't know if I had any say as to what I did anymore. The baby decided when I ate and how much and my body told me to throw up and constantly go to the toilet. I was so fed up with the whole thing, my hormones were telling me to me grumpy and stressed out. The amount of times I've had to apologies for being mean and spiteful is unreal!
I wondered how the children were taking it in, we waited for the bus to pull up and I approached the subject. I worried what they might say but I needed to know.
"So guys, how do you feel about the new baby?"
"Great"
"Awesome"
I sighed, I realised that was all I was going to get out of them and left it as that. I remembered when Mum told Jupiter and I she was expecting Neptune and how we reacted, did she also worry?
Mum took me to the cinema as a mother/daughter treat, it was nice to spend some time alone with her. With so many grandchildren her time is taken up by them, so it was rare to have one on one time with her. It wasn't long before she asked the dreaded question though.
"So what are you thinking of calling the baby?"
"I have no idea! Which reminds me, why did you start call us names of planets?"
Mum started laughing, that question has been bugging me for some time but I keep forgetting to ask. Well now it was out in the open and I could finally get some answers...and maybe some inspiration for my own baby?
"Well I was with Mars so I just carried on the planet idea with Venus, Jupiter, Neptune and you, Saturn. Your father named Skye so that's why he isn't in the theme but I guess Skye dose sort of go with the same topic as planets"
"I thought you were going to carry on having kids until you had the whole set of planets"
Mum laughed harder,
"Hell no! I wasn't going give birth nine times just have all the planets, besides I wasn't going to call my children Pluto or Uranus. Though I suppose Mercury and Earth are nice names"
I thought about it and gave a smile.
"Earth is a great name, I superb name in fact"
When I came in Bluebell wrapped his arms around me and pulled me close,
"Hey babe I miss-"
"Actually can you not do that"
I winced pulling away and pushing him off, I still wasn't comfortable and I didn't know if I have forgiven him enough. It was mean I know but I just couldn't be so romantic with him until I can truly forgive him.
"Honey, I will never leave you and the kids again. You are the most important things to me right now, for the sake of our kids and our baby forgive me please"
I felt torn, torn to forgive him and love him again and torn to kick him out and get rid of him. I pushed past him and ran to the bathroom.
I ran the taps and washed my hands and face. Splashing the cold water up my body trying to cool it down, I knew I had to make my mind up soon. For every one's sake, it was hard though. I thought about everything Bluebell and I have together against everything he was done to hurt me. When I thought about it hard enough I knew I still loved him...but was it enough to forget about the five years he was gone for?
Soon it was the dead line, my time of thinking was over. Today was the day my baby, fingers crossed, would be born. I decided to forgive Bluebell, I loved him too much to watch him leave again. It started out as a normal day, Bluebell left early work work. Teal went off to school, before he did though he rubbed my belly and said to the baby,
"See you soon"
Then it was just Navy and I alone in the house. Poor thing has a stomach bug and has been off all week, at least I have some company now though. Before my days were spent reading pregnancy guides and watching daytime television, now I'm playing video games and trying to get to level 10!
"Come on mum, we need to save the princess"
"I know, I know why don't we put this on pause while I get us a snack?"
I never reached the kitchen though. The baby decided that he/she was more important then crisps and sandwiches, so I stood their clutching my stomach trying not to panic myself or Navy. She was a star though she phoned the ambulance, Bluebell's office and she even phone Jupiter, so things actually went quite smoothly.
"Hey Earth, I'm your sister Navy and were going to best friends. I'll help you through everything because I'm five years older I'm wiser, not as wise as Teal, he is are big brother, he is a year older so he is a tiny bit more clever. Don't tell him I said that though!"
Earth gurgled and giggled as Navy talked to her, again she tried to say her name.
"Arth"
"Actually it's Earth, like the planet we live on, but you were real close little sister"
I watched my too daughters, why couldn't life always be this sweet? Why could life be as peaceful and as calm as it is now? I had strange sense of foreboding, as if just around the corner something bad as going to happen...
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